I'm going to be a bit vulnerable in this post and admit that I've been having a tough time lately. Many days I've woken up feeling stressed, aggrivated, or motivationless. Those feelings carry throughout my day making me cranky, demotivated, or apathetic. Yesterday I had a great morning. I got up early, received good news, and had a productive morning working on projects I care about. But later in the afternoon I started to feel rushed, then stressed, then cranky, and finally demotivated again.
There is no one thing. There are lots of things, some big and some small. And right now I'm figuring out how to cope with my stressors. Watching six hours of TV helps me escape, but once I'm done (or even while I'm watching TV) I talk to myself really negatively about the fact that I've chosen such an insubstantial coping mechanism.
I'm not going to magicaly figure out how to accept the stress of the job search, mounting paper deadlines, and everything else so I'm reminding my self to knock it off with the negative self-talk and remember I'm not just trying...I'm doing it.