You knew this was coming, right? How, my friends, did I think I was EVER going to manage everything I was trying to jam into my daily life? Ugh. I know most of you are out there thinking some version of, “we’ve all done it.” And it’s true. So here is what I am going to do about it…
But first here is a [very quick, very simplified] sampling of “everything” that I've been trying to squeeze into my days:
- Running a business
- Being in a book club
- Being in/managing a blog group
- Working on a happiness project
- Managing a monthly meet up for the women in my happiness project group
- Volunteering and managing a team volunteer project at a local non-profit
- Spending time with my family
- Recharging by spending time with my friends
- Exercising weekly
Folks I don’t think I have an “off” setting. I do have this little voice in the back of my mind that says, “Kasey, this is too much,” but I ignore it. “It’s ok,” I tell myself, “I’m a hard worker, I’m organized, I’ve got this.”
But let’s be serious. When I’m sitting in bed trying to decide if I should read my book club book, gather the questions I need to send my mentor, or stick to my bedtime I’m paralyzed. I literally cannot make a choice about what I should be doing. Reading for book club sounds indulgent. So does bed time, because after all it’s not really productive, right? So I should focus on those questions. Except that I am really tired, and I know I’m not going to do my best work when I'm tired because all of the happiness studies I've read have said so. Then I realize going to sleep is not indulgent. And for that matter neither is reading my book club book…and by now 10 minutes have past and I'm just wasting time.
I have a terrible impulse to do everything RIGHT NOW or else I worry I’ll miss something. I mean really, perhaps I should join a book club after my business is off the ground.... Here’s the thing – if I try to do it all I won’t enjoy it. I won’t do things well. And it won’t have been worthwhile to do anything.
So I'm scaling back and enjoying the things I have chosen to do right now.
There may only be three blog posts on here a week, but hey that means I will have more time for crochet projects and more pictures of finished work to share. Maybe I’ll even finish my desk and write a "how to" post about my process. Oh yeah and I’ll have time to reflect on how I’m feeling about all this happiness I’m bringing into my life. So perhaps, if I am really lucky, I’ll have some insights to share.
Has anyone else decided to scale things back recently? What are you cutting out? Will you add it back later like I plan to do?