"You get to manage your own reputation." - Emily Freedman, Grace for the Good Girl
That's one of the exciting and exhausting things about blogging. Managing your reputation. Can you guess how much I leave out of my blog because of the impact might have on how you think of me?
I am a woman of conviction. I took a personality assessment once that basically said, "If you think something is right you don't need outside praise or acceptance to follow that path." So when it comes to something that is important to me you wouldn't think I'd pause before sharing it on this blog, right?
Well, life is not that cut and dry.
I've hesitated about telling you I'm no longer interested in becoming a librarian. I know in my heart it's a good career that I can excel in. But it doesn't fit. And I tried to make it fit by doing all the research. I knew what schools I'd apply for and what kind of librarian I'd train to be. I talked to alumni from my college who became librarians. I started volunteering in a children's library and somehow (Sheila...) became the lead volunteer.
Everything seemed to be falling into place. I was given great opportunities and I was trying to take full advantage of them, but being a librarian still wasn't right for me. And even though I know lots of others struggle with finding a career I hate to share all this struggle, because I want you to see me as a certain and capable.
But, silly me, I am also imperfect -- human -- and why would I want you to think anything else?